I have gnawed my fingers ever since I can remember. I have tried several times to stop, each attempt has failed. This is my worst habit by far. I am creating this blog in an effort to use the 'awareness' method to stop this. I will be posting progressive pic of my nails in the hopes that doing this will make me think twice when I feel that crack addict like urge come on. I will think of tis blog when I find myself examining my nails looking for the next victim. Here are my nails as they currently look, this is very typical.
As you can see I fancy the mutilation of the skin around the nails and the constant 'upkeep' of my cuticles to the point of raw open wounds.
When I have a meeting with someone at work I look at their nails, I think 'wow this guy has his shit together, look at his nails!' under that same train of thought were I to have a meeting with myself I would think 'wow this guy is a fucking mess!'
I have been wanting to record this for sometime and am finally getting around to doing it. To me this one habit reflects the inner turmoil that is going on inside of me and if I can conquer it, then the sky is the limit!
The physiological affect this has on me is incredible. At times it completely runs y life. As if I were a meth addict or something. Such a fucked up little thing is just so huge.
In any case I have had it with this and am now putting forth true effort to put an end to the torture. I hope that this record will help others who face the same challenge and will show you that there is another way and there is hope yet for your poor little mutilated digits!
